XP 回国了。 这几天一个人夜里带宝宝，白天多亏父母帮助。 作一个单身母亲或家庭主妇真是不易啊！ 然， 在抓狂的同时伴有快乐。宝宝的成长是看得见的：
过了满月，小宝一顿能吃4oz. 用姥爷的话讲： 肚子吃的像蝈蝈似的。
小宝宝刚生出来的时候是没有泪腺的。昨天， 也就是宝宝35天的时候， 我发现他居然流了三滴眼泪。
晚上喂奶的时候， 他居然能自己用两只小手扶着大奶瓶几秒钟。
小宝看人的目光不再迷茫了。 他能随着声响转动。
他开始有更多的需求： 渴望交流， 希望被呵护， 寻求安全感， 害怕孤独...
白天的时候，他要求被抱着睡。 姥姥一把他放在床上，他就嚎啕大哭。我们担心把他惯坏了。但又想， 时间飞逝， 他又有多少时间能在我们的怀抱里， 在我们的庇护下呢？
Little Kyle is one month old today. One month ago, Kyle was born at Edward hospital at Naperville, IL. He was 7 pounds, 9 ounces and 20 inches. Mommy and daddy had hard time picking up names for him. For the Chinese name, daddy looked through all classical Chinese books (i.e. 四书， 五经）and dictionaries but we couldn't make up our mind until a couple of hours before the delivery. It was a rainy day with scattered thunder storms. We decided to call him "凯雷“. We like this name not only because 凯's pronunciation is similar to his English name Kyle and 雷 means the thunder but also because it's full of positive strength and energy. We hope our little boy will turn into a man, a happy and successful man in the future.
Per the Book of Changes (易经）， Kyle was born at a perfect time (16:47, 5/25/08). He has all of five basic elements (五行俱全） which means he will have a peaceful and prosperous future. In fact, his birth time was anything but peaceful or prosperous: mommy's company was undergoing re-organization, Uncle was seriously ill, economy was down, inflation was up, oil was $130 per barrel, etc... However, nothing of these has any impact on Kyle. Kyle is showered with love. Even before his born, we got tons of gifts from co-workers, friends and relatives. Once he was born, mommy, daddy, grandma and grandpa give him unconditional love. Especially thank my parents. It's hard to imagine how to survive the first month without my mom and dad's help. Chinese parents are the greatest parents in the world. They are so selfishless. They not only raised us but also help/teach us to nurture our kid. My friend ZJ visited 雍和宫's main chapel and prayed for Kyle's peace and safety. As my dad said, the efforts and money we put on Kyle could be used to raise 3 kids in the old days.
Kyle definitely brings a lot of happiness and work to the family. Our life is changed ever since. All I did in the past month were pumping the breastmilk, feeding, burping, cleaning up spit-ups, changing diapers, doing laundry, washing all sorts of bottles, and most importantly, trying to figure out why Kyle still cried after I had done all of these. Instead of studying the recipes and looking for travel deals, I'm now a registered member of all kinds of bbs and social networks created for moms. I'm not sure I'm a natual mom. Nor do I believe I've fully established the bonding with my son. I'm still working on it. Most of the time, I feel I'm so ignorant and unprepared. Fortunately, my mom is always willing to give me a hand. In fact, my mom took at least as much responsibilities as I did in the past month. Kyle feels much more comfortable in her arms. Everytime I failed to calm him down, my mom is always my last resort. I hope one day I will be Kyle's last resort. Just like I fully trust my mom, I hope that some day Kyle will know there is always someone right there with him.
Life is short. Kyle completes and extends our lives. We used to have tons of wishes on our baby. We wanted him to be smart, successful, rich and strong. We wanted him to turn our dreams into reality. We wanted him to take all possible shortcuts and not to repeat our mistakes. At this moment, all our wishes to our baby are to BE HEALTY and BE HAPPY.
